Driving up the old back road see the city that you know turn to black My left hand grips the wheel as the other shifts the gears going a little faster now Further on up the road it curves and forks you know so the cattle cant cross the high way Decide to stop a while get out to take a piss and kiss you on your pretty lips It’s a long way back now Running out of fuel I remember so little things at the right time I needed to remember them It all just comes and goes whether or not you want to know what had happened Many many months ago past spring and winter snows deep in the alcohol I let my fingers slip from your cold white hip to find some other lips It’s a long way back now Running out of fuel

Swiftly In the morning I’m depressive Then at night drunk aggressive I’m just here for free booze Unemployed and always on the move Love me like I’m someone else Waiting for the ice to melt My stomach makes me want to run So here I go swiftly out the door When it’s new I’m your man When its old left lame to dance All alone on a dusty shelf Here I go ill have to help my self On my way home I hear my neighbors fucking In their little house Sounds like love being clearly announced Sounds like lust the way the window seal pounds Sounds like dust the way the wind blows round

The winds trying to turn my page Where I sit is cover in shade And pigeons shit on shoulder blades While women laugh at the mess that’s made Purple mountains with spotted clouds Hover over track homes that look so loud Ugly to our eyes but they make rich men proud Cause everything they do is innocent somehow Kneeling at their bed praying to their lord Saying sorry for those things n’ they don’t do them anymore When everything’s been done and they’re hiding from the sun Cheap prescription pills and maids to go on run’s If your stuck behind the glass like the things you cant afford Maxing out your credit cards while their knocking down your door Pinching every penny that you find upon the floor Trying to be better at what people loved you for I know sometimes I’m shitty but you like my wit They got rid of payphones and my cellular just quit Waking up guilty with a messy head of hair And a gut that’s so twisted up its hard to walk down stairs Sometimes it feels nice to let your self destruct And build something new over what was I’ve been reading lately to learn how to write And I’ve been sleeping lately all through the night

Well if you cannot sleep you might as well dig deep to your mind Try to find that hole the one that’s got you looking Underground where you shouldn’t go the darkest parts that you’re made of Well when i'm sitting around idle hands are the play ground I tried to fit the mold but school always got so old So I went else where to find knowledge at the bottom of a bag Well when i’m fast asleep lately the dreams scare me Because its people that I know and pretty girls that never close Their eyes when they know your name putting my life in plain View of the killing kind the flavor of your lips on mine Is easy when I sleep when i’m awake its warning me Go where you never find the worst is you but I never mind An apple sits burnt inside the middle of it I feel it in my mind rotten core but everything seems fine Cause your high as hell as hell sitting on the wishing well Throwing your pennies in a penny here and it’ll give anything I won’t mind Anything for the best of kinds Give me just what I need Give me what’s close and sympathy Trying to collect food stamps and paying the lowest possible rent And I know it’s not alright but it feels really good tonight So well all go get a round of ice cold drinks to wash it down You’re just the kind of girl when I’m drunk and the world fits in my tiny hands Drink it down like its lost romance Cause I go for the killing kind and the taste of your lips on mine But ill shrug you off to go to sleep Alone with my bony body in-between the sheets

Can I read your palm is your life short or long? Everything is cyclical internal and individual Like the engine in my fathers car broke down where we are If you try to dissect my dialect to tell me what I really meant Well that is only what it is to you so keep it there and ill keep mine too And you cannot read my mind from the eyes it hides behind Everything you say to me is fabricated ideology When you got a picture from that camera for the first time did it scare ya? In to thinking what will come next they’ll have one on every corner Just like street lamps just like a mother with a peering set of eyes Is it a curse or a comfort if they stole your purse or your secret numbers? As a teen I stole cash from fast food chains and did lines from that Shit on cars snuck in to bars and broke in to houses just for a laugh

I don’t know why a dog that shits attracts the flies Bees buzz in their hives and their money multiplies You don’t know that I sit around and think of why Bugs they make that sound when the summer comes around It’s hard to see you alone but you’re doing fine on your own I picked up from the page of when we met when you left That day is just a blur and now it’s hard to see what we were I was hiding in a cave but they came and called me out to play Ill just bring my self there’s no need for someone else You know that I am I am that I am I am I don’t need you as much as you think I do I am that I am I am that I am I am In long nights fear comes if you let it I know it’s nice but your gunna regret it

I set a goal like getting old and losing weeks but its only tong in cheek so we laugh. I write a word and then get stuck and then get free there’s always ideas chasing me. The law of lands and lay out of all the plans well this is why we plant our feet like trees Getting by on the things that get you high can only last some time but make a mess of things So now I’m here stuck between the fear of the things that aren’t clear im a year behind i found a sound its what ive larned to keep around but birds im always letting get away from me the bread gets mold like the things that dont hold but i guess everything gets old eventually

sitting on the edge of a scary water slide waiting for the man to give the go ahead cause someone reached the bottom they've easily forgotten how chlorine stains the skin, how chlorine kills the skin capturing a feeling that's stuck to the sealing like a helium balloon it'll come down too soon children keep their laughter like filled teeth with plaster in the Novocain saloon ducks line the walls with fake lakes and water falls in an almost empty room left behind a silver spoon sinking softly in to the leather on the chair you can only feel your breathing don't have a single care eyes start their rolling out of you controlling the itch that stains your skin your stomach starts turning in better get some matches tin foil and plastic straw to break the news of your new self abuse the children keep on laughing they don't know whats happening its the innocence kept in punks line the walls with fake faces and overall its an almost empty room but they left behind all they knew and high low low how did we get here

And the wind that blows the trash around it tumbles just like you. When the morning comes and we missed the sun at least we have the dew. And the bike I ride will go out side and turn and turn in to And the sirens sounds and the trucks their bound for the buildings that climb right through Oh shit I didn’t know that we missed it and Oh no while we were right on top of it and Esaly its you Oh yeah I know that you come right in and Flip the pages to Flip the pages to It’s a stable ground? Nothing like I have found? What I’ve found yet. I got an empty wallet and a nervous stomach but I’ve got what I need to. It was a house that’s built some time ago I think 1922 It was underneath our feet and over our heads with enough room to fit me and you Oh no their taking over all the known and making it a place that we used to go This is always the challenges that people face the blinds they cover you

Eleanor ill watch you run around the yard Looking for mice because I know it’s hard You pause for a moment on all four feet And look at me to claim defeat Then you run away while I watch you hunt Ill see you another day when your out for lunch again And oh what a little life you live Laying around all day like a little kid Your past learning and uncomfortable speech Your body is your language and it’s all you need Leah I’d watch you run around the yard Chasing after cats because I know it’s hard You pause for a moment to rest your feet And look at me and laugh to claim defeat Then you’d go inside and make some lunch You’ll try another day when you have a hunch again And oh what a little life you live Lying around all day like a little kid Your past learning and uncomfortable trade Just happy to spend time on the things that you made